2019 P52, Week 2. Life is Messy. Elyse Rowland Photography of Kalamazoo, Michigan.
Life is messy right now. I’m not going to sugarcoat it. Some days I feel like I’m in survival mode, so I make lists and more lists, I clean like a crazy person (to feel some sort of control), I work myself into the wee hours of the morning trying to feel ‘caught up’, I re-write our daily schedule & tell the kids “tomorrow!”, my laundry piles up and the house in general feels overwhelming, and then eventually… I crash.
I think this happens to so many of us. We forget that we weren’t made to do it all.
My mess and my ‘crash’ does something important though; it brings me to my knees, to the One who never gives up on me. I’m thankful for that.
These photos give just a tiny glimpse of our week. It doesn’t show the tantrums or arguments, the nights where I woke up 6 or 7 times with three children (thanks to night terrors, nursing, and one with terrible eczema.) It also doesn’t show much of our homeschool, because this week, we just didn’t do much. Some weeks are like that… we read more, or the boys work with lego sets or go outside instead, I work a bit more because of a special project (currently: this website), and we do less bookwork. It used to really bother me–not following a perfect schedule each and every day, but I’m starting to feel more comfortable with the pattern.
So tonight I’m taking a deep breath, sharing a piece of my heart with you, taking a bite of chocolate:) and practicing eucharisteo — thankfulness in all circumstances.
“The practice of giving thanks...eucharisteo...this is the way we practice the presence of God, stay present to His presence, and it is always a practice of the eyes. We don't have to change what we see. Only the way we see it.”